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If Only I Could Tell You

By Hannah Beckerman

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A poignant and uplifting story about family and forgiveness that will appeal to readers who have loved Jojo Moyes' Me Before You and Ruth Hogan's The Keeper of Lost Things.


'I loved it' Jojo Moyes

'Compelling and moving . . . it made me cry' Marian Keyes


Audrey's family has fallen apart. Her two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, are estranged, and her two teenage granddaughters have never been allowed to meet. A secret that echoes back thirty years has splintered the family in two, but is also the one thing keeping them connected.

As tensions reach breaking point, the irrevocable choice that one of them made all those years ago is about to surface. After years of secrets and silence, how can one broken family find their way back to each other?


Your favourite authors are all being swept away by If Only I Could Tell You:

'Heartbreaking and uplifting' Ruth Jones, author of Never Greener

'Utterly compelling and completely heart-breaking. I couldn't put it down' Ruth Hogan

'A tender portrait of family lives, losses and secrets' Clare Mackintosh, author of I Let You Go

'So compelling that I read it, cover to cover, in a single day' John Boyne, author of The Heart's Invisible Furies

'Incredibly moving and poignant' Louise O'Neill

'A brave depiction of a family torn apart' Laura Barnett, author of The Versions of Us

'An emotionally engaging, clever & wonderfully satisfying novel - proper storytelling at its finest' Kate Mosse, author of The Burning Chambers

'Totally engrossing, achingly sad and so perceptive about the corrosive legacy of family secrets' Kate Eberlen, author of Miss You

'If Only I Could Tell You breaks your heart, but with an incredible skill and elegance... I loved it to bits' Joanna Cannon, author of The Trouble With Goats and Sheep

'An intricately tender novel about secrets and silence' Julie Cohen, author of Together

Biographical Notes

Hannah Beckerman studied English at King's College, London and for a Master's degree at Queen Mary and Westfield, London. She spent twelve years working in television, first as a Producer for the BBC and subsequently as a Commissioning Editor for Arts and Documentaries at Channel 4 and the Discovery Channel USA. She lived in Bangladesh for two years, working for the BBC World Service Trust.

Hannah is now a full-time author and journalist. She is a book critic and features writer for the Observer, the FT Weekend Magazine and the Sunday Express and a regular chair at literary festivals and events. She has been a judge for numerous book prizes including the Costa Book Awards. If Only I Could Tell You is Hannah's second novel. She lives in London with her husband and daughter.

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  • ISBN: 9781409177302
  • Publication date: 21 Feb 2019
  • Page count: 368
  • Imprint: Orion
A tender and heartbreaking second novel — Daily Mail
A must-read. An absorbing tale of long-buried family secrets, grief and guilt with a midpoint twist that changes everything — Sunday Express Magazine
Tender, heartbreaking and utterly beautiful — Psychologies
Life-affirming — Red
Hot reads: If Only I Could Tell You really tugs the heartstrings — Good Housekeeping
A tender story that will have you reaching for tissues — PRIMA
There are certain pieces of fiction that are so-well written, acted, directed & created that the characters & their fates become stitched into the fabric your life — Stylist
Tense, moving and tender — Sun on Sunday
A powerful novel about grief, guilt and...secrets — Sunday Express
A compelling yet tender tale — Woman & Home
A tender story — Sunday Mirror
Emotionally-charged and superbly crafted . . . For all its emotional intensity and heartbreaking themes, Beckerman's compelling, compassionate novel delivers ultimately life-affirming and uplifting messages with eloquence, elegance and an acute understanding of the delicate but unbreakable bonds of family — Lancashire Post
I loved it — Jojo Moyes
A beautiful tale... Heartbreaking and uplifting — Ruth Jones
Utterly compelling and completely heart-breaking — Ruth Hogan
A tender portrait of family lives, losses and secrets — Clare Mackintosh
Wonderful . . . I loved it to bits — Joanna Cannon
Engaging, clever, and wonderfully satisfying . . . storytelling at its finest — Kate Mosse
I pure loved it! Compelling and deeply moving — Marian Keyes
A tender, moving portrait of three women's lives... If Only I Could Tell You broke my heart — Rosie Walsh, author of The Man Who Didn't Call
An intricately tender novel about secrets and silence — Julie Cohen
Totally engrossing, achingly sad and so perceptive — Kate Eberlen
[An] incredibly moving, poignant book...It will have you in floods of tears — Louise O'Neill
Profoundly beautiful and heartbreaking in turn — Kate Hamer
Utterly heartbreaking and beautifully written — Libby Page
A wise and tender tale of a family divided...compelling from the first page to the last — Emylia Hall
A brave depiction of a family torn apart — Laura Barnett
Lyrical and deeply emotional — Katy Regan
Toxic friendship [is] beautifully explored in Hannah Beckerman's If Only I Could Tell You — Marie Claire